BUSY BUSY BUSY

We have started v-ball, Girl scouts is off and running agian. Tristan had his first band concert. Basket ball is right around the corner. I must say that I Love it!! The kids are just growing up so fast. Here are some new pictures!!

Refreshing!!!

Okay I am going to vent a little just to pre warn everyone!! This weekend I turned the big 35!! This was the first time a birthday was hard for me. I am not sure why but it was but with the help of my sister Jeri and my sister Samantha and my hubby and kids and the many wonderful friends that I have I survived it. It has been a refreshing year for me. As the New year started I stopped and re evaluated the people in my life. I consider myself a very caring person always willing to help anyone that is in need. I see my blessing every day and it completes me to share that feeling with others. My first step was my family, I stopped and looked at the way they made me feel and when they called it always was because they needed me or to put others in the family down and for years I have cotributed to this by just helping them or listening. I handed them to God I told him of my hurt and my concerns and as hard as it was I walked away knowing that he is the only one that can touch them and there is no doubt in my mind that he will. It seems that instantly there was a large wieght off of me. One I never relized was there, for many years I held on to the hope that one day they would truely care, then it hit me I do not have that power only prayer can help them. I soon saw what a better mom I could be what a better wife and friend with out this wieght I was so much happier. I have made my peace with it and am truely happy. Recently my wonderful baby sister has begun to see the same issues I have and it breaks my heart. I know she will have to find her way I just know how hard it can be and I pray for her. There are always people that truely love you and there are people that just do not know how to love... they are not bad people... they are people who need your prayers but sadly that is all you can give them. It breaks my heart to see anyone hurting and I want to take it all away but all I am able to do is pray and listen.. I believe that bad things happen to everyone at some point in thier life I also believe that you can use these as an excuse or as a stepping stone to lift yourself up. I have choose to be a better person..